18. FAMIVERSARY

When I am out in public with all the children, strangers frequently ask me “are they all yours?” Not wanting to go into specifics, my typical response is: “Yes. This is my family.” My stomach was full of nerves and my pulse was racing as I watched the two little girls walk hand in hand… Continue reading 18. FAMIVERSARY

16. The voices in my head

Click- click- my thumb is pressing down on the button of our van’s electronic key, my hand outstretched towards the brass lock. I am standing at my front door, staring at the faded yellow paint and the silver door handle, wondering, why hasn’t it opened yet? When what I am doing dawns upon me, a… Continue reading 16. The voices in my head

11. Rollercoasters and other metaphors

At 37 weeks pregnant the exhaustion is quite overwhelming; I am getting very breathless and finding it difficult to stand. Yesterday I told the children that I would not be able to play “you can’t catch me” anymore. What a disappointment I am. I have never felt this tired in a pregnancy before. From my… Continue reading 11. Rollercoasters and other metaphors

9. Upon stopping to smell the roses

For many years I have had a somewhat obsessive-compulsive/guilt-motivated relationship with the old “stop and smell the roses” cliché. When out walking, if I passed a fence overhung with roses, I simply had to stop to smell them because otherwise I felt I was not truly ‘embracing life’. The wisdom of the old adage was… Continue reading 9. Upon stopping to smell the roses